A tea party for the many faces of me

My Longer Poetry

The Lonely Wolf



















The lonely wolf
Starving and tired
Weak and stumbling through the trees
So afraid
So confused
But still standing
Still hunting
Still fighting
Never giving up
Forever seeking
To find her way home


The End

I recently found a (very wordy) poem that I wrote about 11 or 12 years ago. Knowing what I know now about poetry, I can honestly say that this poem was poorly written. But no matter how poorly written it may be, I still find it beautiful. And it says a lot about how I was feeling when I wrote it.

The End



Her heart lies dying on the ground

Her blood is flowing like the sea

She’s crawling around gasping for air

She looks up to see he is starting down at her

The one with whom she’d trusted her life

The one with whom she’d given her heart





She hears his voice

He’s telling her he’s sorry

He’s telling her he didn’t mean to do it

He’s begging her to hold on

She falls on her back

Looks up to the sky

She feels him beside her




He’s trying to give her back her heart

He’s trying to save her life

She closes her eyes

She feels the tears on her face

She can’t tell if they are hers or his





He’s screaming now

Screaming for her to come back

She’s behind him now

Looking over his shoulder

She sees her body on the ground

She watches as he lifts her up

He carries her away

It’s then she knows





He’d never meant to hurt her

What happened was unavoidable

It was meant to be

And then she sees the light

It’s bright white with flecks of gold

She feels herself being pulled towards it

But she doesn’t want to go




She’s sorry that she’d given up

She wants to tell him that it’s not his fault

She turns away from the light

She runs back to him

He’s sitting with her in his arms

He’s telling her he’s sorry he failed

She looks down at him

Then looks into her own face

She closes her eyes

She hears him calling her name

She opens her eyes





He’s smiling down at her

His tears are falling on her face

They look into each other’s eyes

They do not speak

They don’t need to

She knows he’s sorry

He knows she’s forgiven him

He helps her to her feet

And holds her in his arms

She looks up at him

Their lips meet

For one last kiss





She tells him to go

He doesn’t want to

She tells him he must

She tells him he cannot stay

He backs away

Not wanting to turn around

She tells him she loves him

One final time





She closes her eyes

Spreads her arms wide

She lets herself go

Falling down a deep dark hole

Then she sees the light

Just as bright as can be




She’s ready now

She doesn’t fight it this time

Her pain is over

She suffers no more

She is at peace

This is the end

Empty Shell

I gave my life to fate

In hopes she’d do me right

She gave me love

And promises

Hope for the future

She gave me faith

In the form of a man

That man gave me even more love

And promises

And faith

Faith in him

Faith that he was the one

The one to make my dreams come true

The one to stand by me in good times and bad

And for awhile he did

Until the mask came off

And the demon was revealed

He ripped out my heart

And buried it in shit

Now I’m an empty shell

Nothingness in the form of a girl

A weak and broken girl

With nothing left but her tears

A river of bitter tears

Damned to flow for eternity


The Silent Daughter

Father trapped in solitary madness
Mother locked in eternal judgment
Daughter all grown
Yet feeling like a child

Forever crying
Bewildered tears
Never saying a word
Swallowing the pain

Caught forever in between
Responsibility and burden
Always questioning fate
The silent daughter weeps

Angel’s Wings

I was broken when he found me
My soul in tattered ruin
I was lost in darkness
Until he showed me the light

I was dead inside
My spirit shattered
Laying in a heap on the ground
Until I felt his warmth

He came to me
As if in a dream
Wings spread wide
Glowing silver and gold

Taking my hand
He lifted me up
Enveloped me in his embrace
And surrounded me with his wings

He whispered in my ear
And told me he loved me
He kissed me softly
And promised to protect me forever

He gave me his love
And swore his loyalty
Devoted his soul
And gave me his wings

“They’re now yours”
He said
“They’ll protect you when I’m away”
He swore

He kissed me fiercely
And held me tight
Promising to return
And to love me forever

So now when I’m sad
I look down at the wings
Those silver feathers
That remind me of him

I keep them near my heart
All day and night
Holding onto hope
And having faith in his love

The Flight of Night

The flight of night
Is what I long to do
I lay in bed
Ready to fly
Feeling the terror
That makes me cry
Lift me away
To the starry unknown
Lift me up with the wind
That so softly moans
Take me away
From my earthly shell
Release me from this
My own private hell


Her heart stops
But the world goes on
The dawn of her sadness
Rises with the sun
She feels alone
With no one to care
She carries with her
Guilt no one can share
Her pain envelopes her
Making her numb
To the darkness inside her
She soon will succumb